I am not a glass half full type of person. I want to be, really I do. The truth is that I have always been a worrier and I find many aspects of motherhood mentally and emotionally draining. Some mornings I wake up already exhausted by the thought of the mundane tasks ahead.
I have to get up and get everyone ready for school. I have to go to Target to find a birthday gift for a kid I don’t even know. I have to think of a healthy dinner my entire family will enjoy. I have to check homework, make snacks, drag everybody to dance class, robotics, and tae kwon do. I’ll have to play 5 rounds of Candyland and read Amelia Bedelia until I’m near tears.
Maybe it is that I am getting older and seeing so many mothers with challenges, or maybe I knew I needed a desperate change in my thought process, but I have changed my thinking from I have to into I get to. These three simple words have changed everything for me.
Now when I think about my daily tasks I approach them with the realization that getting to is a gift.
When I start stringing together all of the silly things my husband does that drive me crazy, I think of the woman that I assisted at a local food pantry who had recently moved out of a domestic abuse shelter. I’m reminded that I should never take for granted having a partner who supports me and a home where I get to feel safe.
I think of the boy in my son’s third-grade class who stole his classmate’s snacks all year. I wonder if his mama woke up with a knot in her stomach because she knew she would not get to pack him one. How could I have forgotten that getting to provide food for my children is not an annoyance but a luxury not everyone has?
As I find out that my friend with two small children who has battled cancer for years is now on hospice care, I am grounded in the reality that I get to.
Today I get to be a mother.
I get to wrap my arms around my littles and watch them grow. I get to provide them with everything they need and some of what they want. I get to teach them the hard lessons of life and I get to watch them fail. I get to practice patience and I get to make mistakes. Today will not be perfect, today I will not love all things, but I am humbled by the simple fact that today I have been given another chance to get to.